In a funk.....

Well, I have made it to 8 months of my journey! I am so proud of myself... When I first started out I never would have thought seriously that I would have made it this far. I think I have had maybe one serious setback at like 5 months where I started having loc envy and I picked out some locs calling myself starting over. Other than that. I have been ok. As you know, I combined quite a few right before the 28th and now I kinda sorta feel in a funk about my locs! I think I am getting very anxious. I'm just ready for mine to loc and do whatever! I have thinking about getting them cut in the bob style that I loooooove so much. they would kinda be like Max's on Living Single(when it was on). My husband says that I remind him of her a lot... She was crazy. I had forgotten all about her and that hairstyle until I was watching some reruns one day. I was like, dang I have been wearing my hair like hers! Anyway, I'm not all that crazy about length right now. I just want them boogers to be on a serious loc down! I have a buddy who has been growing her tresses for 12 yrs! Talk about beautiful! She never wears them down cause they are so long! Her son and her daughter are also loced. They are 7 and 9. Simply beautiful.. I have loc envy when I look at hers for real... Hers are the traditional locs.. I look at her locs and be like loc love for real.... Anyhoo, I havent done too much to mine, but I have done enough. I should have started them w/2st, but didnt. Am I going to start over, i dont think so. I just keep holding on the the thought that there are many out there who started way before me and they may have felt the way I feel and stuck it out. The end result will be total loc bliss for sure. Just think in 4 short months I will have celebrated one year of trying to get this loc thing straight. Big kudos to me.... So with all of that said, I'm kinda in a funk, thus the title, but, I am trying to overcome. I need some encouragement people. Hit a sista up w/ some love! I think I might just go until the end of the year and not twist... I dunno. I love the manicured look, but I love the full look too. I'm torn, but I know I gotta leave my babies be. Too much styling is going to regret some things down the road. I feel it, so I gotta go w/ my gut feeling.... It's all good... Thats my rant and my rave for the day. Check ya later...